The ViRgInEeR Funda

I am a virgin. I'm an engineer. I'm a ViRgInEeR....
I have not even touched any girl, machine's internals or circuitboard.

Entry for Jan 26, 06

You might have danced before but dancing like no one's watching amidst 6000 exuberant people on the breathabstaining tunes of Shankar, Ehsaan and Loy is not a common recreation in a Republic Day evening.

A recreation?!! Rather a madness, an excuse to let some sound wavelengths of high amplitude sway your emotions or in fact it's like sailing in the Pacific without a sail....because it's out of your hands to hold your hands to rest. I experienced today a magician disguised as a musician making me involuntarily dance like Mike Jack's guru and that too when I couldn't attend the dance workshop sessions of Saarang! The colourful part of the story is that I was dancing with 4 gals facing me and 2 beside me who had gone insane as well. Now this is an honest assuration that those were not the typical non-males of IITM albeit partly booked ones, and no being on earth could stop me from widening my imaginations that took me to Chemplast Cricket Ground with six gals quenching my lust in a crazy dream that night.
That was the day of realization and rewards. Standing tall on the zenith of succes I felt as if I'm yelling to myself, " Lo fool! And you were saying that I don't know how to dance with gals." Just after the exit from that open air theatre of dynamic and energetic atmosphere I landed on the YOMOTO airport! (Pardon this guy struggling for the first blog of his life he's talking about Motorola Ad Stall) Hmmm that's yet another pink event that ended in a prized pink T-shirt. I just put my zeal into some crap promoting games of that motorola guy and came out with 'IIT Rocks' slogans and that infamous moto-shirt but then.... Then those ruthless friends of mine, may Lord bestow them with no mercy when it's my turn, kicked my butt like hell in a movement to save the tradition of bumps-giving in IITM. I escaped out somehow and you won't believe.....someone who's happy with me in the good heavens condensed the clouds, a drizzle just arrived in time making the celebrated day even more special.
So that was January the 26th 2006 for me; the Republic Day of my beloved nation brought in 100 GB of happiness.exe into my hard disk, Bharat Mata ki Jay indeed!

The Sky Is Clear

Time was fleeting so fast and I was lost in the infinite hollowness of leisure activities round the clock. I was like a feather who had renounced any botheration of the direction of flow, ascent or descent, or the destination - leaving myself to the careless hands of fate. Then, one moonlit night, I got to talk to a senior who counselled me. Here's an account of the chronology:

Monce of dark clouds,
The compass did fail;
All directions looked similar,
Worthless was the sail.

The waves kicked & tossed me
And me lying numb
Lost in my fantasies,
As if I did succumb.

And then descended a seraph,
His eyes deep like his wisdom;
Conveyed he the holy message
And said,"Let light come!"

Gone are the gusty winds,
The clouds shall ne'er be here;
The era of light is unleashed
For the sky is now clear.

The resurrection-time witnesses,
Rejuvenated I stand,
Rip-roaring is the new 'me',
Can shake the universe with a hand.

With will firm as rock
With realization of what I am
Here I start the unending race,
Let them hear my victory, wham!

God

So you love Mom, don't you? Everybody does. Recall the day when you left her for the first time. The fear of living, sans her around you, immediately filled your cup of emotions over the brim. The irritation of your inability to change things reacted with the waves of grief in the atmosphere to evolve tremendous amount of emotions that trickled down your face as tears.
This, my friend, is true love, the divine love that is more profound than light, more playful than gravitation in binding entities albeit the mother of all forces which have been responsible for vibrations sustaining life, sustaining matter and sustaining everything else in the universe.

Basically what we experience in normal life is just a babyspark of love. There is a whole nuclear bomb of love lurking inside you that is still unseen. Don't get amazed for you will soon justify it yourself.
Have you heard about reincarnation and the theories suggesting that no matter how painfully you perish, the being I'm referring to as 'you' remains as it is except for the trivial fact that it's not palpable any more and that too for a few moments. For those moments that being (let's give him a name, say Atman) sleeps with an intensity a billion times that of the deepest human sleep . Dude, can you believe that sleeping guy is nobody else but you after a free entry into the realms of death. Atman just entering into the dimensions of death is afraid and humble. But soon he realizes the brand-new absolute freedom he is experiencing. No more breathing and pumping exercises and restraints on your movement, no more pain of being caged into that small human body and no need to let himself into the ocean currents of emotions, attachment and desires. Everything is gone and when he checks his wallet he has got three things - love, himself and someone who has been hiding during the whole play.

That someone is God. Soon Atman, in the clear atmosphere of deathland that is free from earthly misleading clouds, beholds the sun! He realizes that God has always been with him waving His hands even in the earthly clouds in the faces of all those who loved him and those whom he loved. Atman in free state is an owner of true intelligence and discovers that 'love polishes human faces which reflect God's image for you to remember Him for you have forgotten Him but He's still very much undeviated from the path of loving you'. "So it was You who has been my mother, father, friend, brother, sister and everybody else I can recall!". "Yes my dear it was Me and you have realized by now that I have been your mother since the day of your existence and will be there with you till infinity. Our love is beyond all boundaries of time and space for you and Me are one and the same. You and all other beings are nothing else but a reflection of Me. We shall have to play this hide-n-seek again for you forgot Me."
"Please God don't send me away from you again." "Don't worry I'll always be there with you in your mom, dad, friends and every being and you can always talk to me in the language of love, bye."
So now you know how much you love someone who has been your mom, dad, everything for the past infinite years and will be there loving you immensely forever. All you have to do is - push the button to release that lurking love. But how to do that...?
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kriya_Yoga